By Kari Macknight Dearborn, new Kaiut yogi in Toronto
As I sit (in sukhasana, of course) waiting for the evening Toronto workshops to begin, I'm reflecting on how much harder it was for me to sit this way last week. Literally - I couldn’t sit cross-legged for more than a few minutes without real discomfort. It’s still not a position
I'm wild about, but it's growing on me, and getting easier. I’ve come here to work hard and push myself each day - and each day I leave to go home with a new appreciation for both what I CAN do with my body and its current limitations.
My experience with yoga is decades old, as is my absence from practice. Yoga was something I did regularly in university (in the mid 90s), but once I graduated it disappeared from my life. My priorities shifted to the ‘adult’ world of work and bills, and yoga slowly moved down the list until
it just wasn’t there anymore. I’d always played soccer and started to play golf in my 30s to stay active - but I got injured and continued to build on the old hurts with new ones, thus becoming less and less active and healthy as I went. I gained weight and lost confidence and fitness.
Over the past few years I’ve tried to reintroduce regular practice into my life, but at every yoga studio I tried I didn’t fit in. Either the teachers didn’t understand injury, they had no patience for relative beginners, or the environment was all wrong for me. Yoga had become mainstream in my absence but it wasn’t what I remembered. Even walking into a Lululemon was terrifying - nothing fit and I was lost. I was heavy now and new to yoga again. I pretty much decided it wasn’t for me anymore.
Then, last year, Heidi organized a Kaiut demo at the ad agency where we both work. I had nothing to lose - it was free to attend and in our building! Within about five minutes of listening to Francisco talk about his philosophy and background I knew Kaiut was for me. We discussed my
injuries and areas of concern and I left the class with so much energy. I remember feeling better (even if I was a bit sore from doing too much) than I had in a long time and longing for more.
As much as my body is tired this week from the daily practice, I feel amazing. Francisco’s attention to detail and obvious care for his students keeps me properly aligned and I am taking it at my own pace. I’m sleeping well, feeling strong, and eager to keep this momentum going. There is levity and love in the room each day and people care how you’re progressing. The people I’ve met here who’ve travelled from all over to learn this method reinforce that I’m doing a great thing for myself. My immediate goal is to feel well enough again to break out my soccer cleats
and my golf clubs, but long-term I want to keep Kaiut in my life so I always be pain-free and active.