So Monday was Blue Monday in Canada. What is that you might ask? Well the third Monday in January is considered to be the most depressing day of the year.
Which got me thinking about what I have to be depressed about. It's cold and grey outside. I put on 10 lbs over the holidays. Our dreamy ski vacation wasn't as utopian as I had imagined it would be. I am still understaffed and under pressure at work. The Kaiut event in Toronto is now less than 2 months away and the to-do list is long! Three friends died of cancer recently... in their early 50's. And I am pre-cancerous myself. My husband feels ignored because of how busy I am. My son has started a childhood obesity prevention program. And so on.
So why am I not depressed - especially when I am prone to depression? Why am I not feeling like a bad wife, bad daughter and bad mom? Why can I feel the same sadness, frustration, disappointment, failure and vulnerability I have always felt but not feel them as deeply? Feel them but not become consumed by them?
Because somehow now I am able to see them and then move on. I am able to process them and get beyond them. I am able to receive them but compartmentalize them so I can also receive all the good, love and beauty in the world. I am not becoming insensitive but rather sensitized to the positivity as well as the negativity in life. And I feel so much healthier. Thank you Kaiut Yoga.