Someone said to me once, several years ago, that they didn't think I could ever be happy.... that I was too smart to be happy. Well, I wasn't sure how to take this. Was it an insult? I didn't think so as he and I were good friends. Was it a backhanded compliment - like all great painters are thought to have been tortured souls? Was it a good thing? A bad thing? Or was it just another way to say that ignorance is bliss? After the initial surprise at the comment, I disregarded it. Until now.
I was driving to work earlier this week thinking about how happy I am. I mean life is certainly not perfect, and I am certainly not perfect. And all that lack of perfection has made me crazy miserable over the years but I quietly realized that it doesn't anymore. Hmmm. Why is that?
Well, I got to thinking about one of my first posts to this blog. I talked about the wonders of Kaiut in that I spend an hour on the mat and I come away seeing the world differently. The world hasn't changed and yet I have. Somehow all the cliches now apply to me - I feel like 'a glass half full person', someone who 'sees the world through rose coloured glasses', who 'finds the good in everything', who knows 'there is always a silver lining'... (ok, I'll stop now).
And now, the even more interesting realization is that its not just the hours immediately following my practice anymore. Happy has become my baseline; my default mood. Somehow by practicing consistently, my Kaiut practice has established a new underlying sense of contentment deep within me. I've become a positive person. I am happy with myself, happy with those around me, happy with my life and the world at large. All the same good and bad stuff is happening to me in my day but I am not seeing it in the same way nor reacting to it in the same way. I've been told this is what Buddhists refer to as the Bliss Body and I'm totally ok with it however long it lasts.
If being this blissful makes me ignorant, great. If I am too naive now to be miserable, brilliant. Maybe being smart is way over-rated. My goal today is to have another stupid happy day!